I’ve been really good at communicating my feelings lately.
Except this one. I’m watching where it goes instead of bringing it up because it involves all my fears about people:
1) the insecurity of not being good enough or never being good enough,
2) betrayal from lack of self-control,
3) your suspicions confirmed,
4) and, as a result, never trusting anyone again, not even those you call friends.
What trust I have is on its last leg. I’m trying to be good about it, giving the benefit of a doubt over and over again, but I’m not blind and never have been.
I observe people really carefully, and this is one situation I wish I never paid attention to.