i keep making the same mistakes because i feel like once or twice is never enough. sometimes not even a hundred if i feel strongly enough about it. i have no reason not to learn from them the first time around, really, but i feel like i need to make sure of them - that i’m not making a mistake by assuming they are before i’ve trialed them endlessly.
i feel like this is why my actions never match up to the things i say. something’s going to give eventually, and i’m not sure which one is going to go first.