i have never quite developed an addiction to anything other than escapist measures. if i find something that allows me to run away from myself and other burdensome things for a few hours, i become strongly attached to seeking those opportunities, especially if those things that bother me are pretty significant (subjectively speaking). in effect, it makes me upset when i know said opportunities are unwise to use as a constant method because, for me, rationality will always trump desperation.
if i weren’t so dissatisfied with a lot of things right now, i probably wouldn’t have any reason to feel this way.
